By Julia Amting
I am, undeniably and unashamedly, one of the biggest die-hard Taylor Swift fans you will ever meet. And no, not because I have a flair for the melodramatic. Taylor’s lyrics speak to the depths of women’s souls at times, and I think that’s a massive reason why she is so very successful. She sings of heartbreak and joy and feelings that we find hard to put into words.
Anyways, there is one lyric in one of her less-known songs “All too Well” on her album, Red that has always had a special meaning for me. This post-break up song describes how she feels lost and empty after the end of a relationship, and how vivid and painful those memories are. An incredibly real feeling after a break up. Such a sad song, but there is an extremely joyful observation and realization I’ve made through this particular lyric.
“Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it,
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it.”
“I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it.”
I think after we go through a difficult period, a break up, or any period of change or moving on, we feel affected. Even if nothing drastic happens to us, we morph with our circumstances, with our own seasons of spiritual highs and lows. We feel different, and not ourselves. Often the person we were before the change happened is a stranger to us as we think back. Or we feel like a stranger to ourselves, and it is acutely uncomfortable and discomfiting.
“Sing to the Lord a new song!” Psalm 33:3
“See, I am doing something new!